If you lay down with dirt, you will come up dirty.

I should treat myself better, with a better man and a better attitude.

把自己捲曲成受虐者的姿態尋求別人的同情真的很可悲。

nothing and none can help you but youself.

notes for reminding high self-esteem:
1. Know yourself.
2. Move on from past, get rid of emotional baggage.
3. Do not compare yourself to others.
4. Don't worry about what others think of you.
5. Be your own person.
6. Learn to appreciate and value yourself.

and yes, I deserve all the better things. I should not put myself down to satisfy every person but at the end, lose myself and happiness. I do not responsible for others' emotion but myself. I need to love myself in order to get others love me. I should forgive myself from past negative events and move on. only me can save myself from crashing.

SAVE ME AND I WILL SAVE YOU.